Be my Valentine?

So this is our first year with the girls!!!  The best part about today is its the day the girls were conceived!!!  So thats super exciting!!  Also, its their first valentines day!!!  And they both have a valentine!!  Eachother ♥  I love them so much and I am so happy to have them!!  I guess I am all lovey dovey right now...shoot me :)

Lost in my own head

Ugh...That is all I can say!  UGH!!!  Okay glad I got that out!!  I feel soooo overwhelmed with my own  thoughts...should I do this or that, go here or there, buy or save, clean house or hold a baby, sleep or shower...seriously its endless the things I waiver between.

We are getting our tax refund backin a few days and let me tell you...having two babies in one year will leave you with one hell of a pay check from the government!  We will, for the first time since being together, be 100% DEBT FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Thank you Jesus!  haha but really I am so out of my mond happy to no longer be in debt of anything!  Which I believe are where my racing thoughts begin.

First off, we need a more child friendly vehicle.  We have 2 trucks right now, a pick up with 2 doors and a back bench seatand a bronco with two doors and a bench seat.  I worry about once theyre in car seats that stay in the car...how will I buckle them?  So if we buy a vehicle, we will be in debt again, and will pretty much lose the $400 a month that we are saving  by paying everything off!  See, dilemma #1 

Number two is what we will do with the money left over?  Spend it and if so how much, on what, we need to make it count.  save it and if so how much for how long and what are the stipulations on using it.  UGH!!!!

There is just so much going on that I am about to explode!!  It feels good to vent, and although it seems like I am cutting this postshort...well I am because the girls are hungry :)  Thank God for them!  Without them I would be a disaster!!!

Worlds worst mommy

So I just had a worlds worst mommy moment.  I was giving the girls their night time bottles and both girls would suck for a minute then start screaming!!  This happened for about 10 minutes before I thought "hey they are obviously over tired so I wont try to force it on them"  so 5 minutes of soothing two crying babies I gave them their bottles back.  Again with the sucking and screaming!!  Finally i thought that maybe the flow was too slow for them, so (I use drop ins) I push up on the bag and NOTHING COMES OUT.  I quickly grabbed the second bottle...SAME THING!!! Oooh I felt so bad!!  I had two crying starving babies and mommy was teasing them!!!  Poor things, once I fixed the nipples (which by the way I have no clue as to why they were clogged, I dont add rice or anything...) they didnt trust me and wouldnt take the bottles, I had to squirt milk on the inside of their cheeks to get them to take them...man do I feel bad!  Now they are both full and asleep!!  Which is my cue to go to bed too!!

3 MONTHS!!!

I can not believe that Rylie and Laramie are 3 months old already!  Its crazy how fast time flies!!  They are already weighing in at around 12 pounds for Laramie and 13 pounds for Rylie!!  They can both sit on their own (when placed) for about 20 seconds, they both roll over both ways, they have amazing head control, AND they have started sleeping through the night!!  I am so proud of my little boogers!!

I have been trying so hard to keep them off their backs and on their tummies or holding them or whatever I have to do so they dont get flat heads, but they both have little bald patches and slightly flat heads!!! ugh I dont know what else I could do!!!  It is definitely frustrating!  I have accepted the fact that sense I have two babies, a little flat head is okay!!

Nick has been gone on a training Mission in Arkansas for the past 3 weeks and let me tell you, it is seriously trying when you have NO back up for three weeks!!!!!  I am hanging on by a thread and to top it off, we just had a huge storm that I wasnt prepared for, and so I have been stuck at our house with NO FOOD for the past WEEK!!  I am ready to pull all my hair out.



Well, I guess I will leave you with the fun part...baby pictures!!!

 Me Rylie and Laramie

 Rylie & Laramie

 Ha Ha Laramie being a goof ball

Laramie chewing on her hand

Ice Storms

So for those of you who live under a rock...a huge storm has it the eastern 3/4 of the US.  Well, Missouri got hit pretty hard!  Thank the lord we didnt lose power, but we are currently unable to make it out of our driveway.  You see, we live in the hills in Missouri, and the driveway is about 200 yards from bottom to top, oh yeah and its at about a 6 degree slant, for those of you who are unsure....thats a lot!!!

So currently the weather is as follows:  Sunny, tempeture -3  feels like -3!

Awesome!!  I am not looking forward to taking the dogs out thats a given!!  Anyway, last time it snowed this is what we did....

 Rylie on Left Laramie on right

 Obviously I cant do the "self portrait" thing

We took the girls out for their first outdoor event (that didnt include their car seats!!)  They werent too sure, ad I fell down...While holding Rylie, but she was fine I slid on my butt and she didnt cry or anything :)  Well I ought to take the dogs out (they gotta go even in -3!!)  I have another update that I will do in a bit!

Oh Goodness Gracious

So the past 10 weeks have been INSANE!!!  I have been neglecting my blog because lets face it, I can barely get myself a shower, or tweeze my eyebrows let alone find time to write in my blog :(  I am determined to make time however, mainly because I want to be able to look back and see how things were going!

So today has had both very high points, and very low points.  Lets begin with the high points.  We slept pretty good last night.  They went to bed at 8:30 (yeah yeah im working on bringing that up to 8pm) Laramie woke up at 2:45, ate 2oz and was out again.  and Rylie and Laramie then woke up at 4:45, both ate 4oz and went right back to sleep.  And we were up by 6:30 for the day.  Its going waaaay better than when they were up every 2 hours, and up for an hour each time just trying to go back to sleep.  Also, they are 10 weeks old today!  I can not believe it!  They had their 2 month shots on the 7th, their check up was great, we got a prescription for Zantac (finally!) and all is well.  Their shots were pretty smooth (Nick came along thank God!) and they got their shots and were back asleep :)  I am working on a post for that...so you can read all the details. The girls took a good nap this morning so I was able to deep clean my bathroom and clean and vacuum the house!!

Now for the bad...I ordered some Hand and Face wipes through BRU (among other items) and my girls are allergic to them!!!  Oh its soo bad and they are sooo itchy!!!  They have a rash all over their little bodies!!!  So they both got a bath and hydro cortisone all over..poor little sweeties!!!!

PHOTO SHOOT

So I have three posts in the making...im working on it but for now...enjoy these pictures :)